A day in my life

Surrealist

2008-02-18T23:55:10Z

Its strangely surreal... I should be jumping with elation..that I SURVIVED my first actual wreck.

Yes, I was just recently in an accident. An hour prior to be exact. I've had lots of close calls, but I didn't actually think something like this could actually be happening to me. But it did. And god, I'm feeling melancholy. Amaretsu take my soul, I need some comfort for this.

I'm unharmed expect I think I suffered a concussion..oh well. I didn't break anything and only two cuts are on my fingers. No broken glass. No injuries in the accident. Whoo....

The feeling is surreal, I just can't take in these facts that it actually happened. Shit...I was in accident..and yet I can laugh and smile about it...only partly though.

Story of my life...FTW

2008-01-26T07:19:24Z

I'm updating this after....like forever.

All the electronics when I'm in the room seem to be fluxuating lately. Maybe its the static electricty my puppy keeps passing along to me.

In any case, I'm feeling like....rawwwr and blah lately. Except for that one moment, when my best friend and his girlfriend started making out in MY ROOM right in front of ME. Not like I haven't seen it before...or joined in before -coughcough-

My week hasn't been the greatest. And I don't need any fucking shit from someone who thinks they know what I'm about. I don't need to be judge for someone I WAS and not who I am. I'm not that kid who in 5th grade only said 'yes' once every period and never talked again. I've changed a lot. A LOT! I'm not shy. I've never been shy. I'm just easily embarassed and I don't think forward in the future. I live in the moment. That's my policy. I didn't ever think I'd be here like this, that this would be my life...I never thought.

I don't want to be criticized for something I can't change. So don't bring this shit to me and expect me to actually answer you because...I'm going to tell you to fuck off.

.........I miss my good friends T.T

I'm more of an idiot than I thought

2007-04-15T02:28:47Z

Today, I managed to lock myself out of my house. It was cold! And i was out there!!!!!!!!! I had to call my boyfriend and make him come home from work to let me in. He laughed at me for an hour. I was glaring at him, until he left an hour later, after making sure I was alright, but he shouldn't have laughed. He's locked himself out of the house and I didn't laugh at him.

On the other hand! I'm finally 19!!!!!!!!!!!!! Actually its been a whole month but whatever. My brother finally got me to stay in the country long enough to organize a party. And they kidnapped my twin sister, so we ended up having the party against our wishes, but it was fun. My younger brother, who's 18 goes "Aniki, you're OLD!" I was like O.o. I'm only a year older than him. He thought I was turning 29. I was surprised at that. Most people think I'm younger than I acutally am. Last year, my professor asked me how old I was, before I could tell him he says 'wait, don't tell me, you're 13.' I just about died on the spot. Even my boss thought I was only 15. He told me, when i first applied that 'kids your age, shouldn't be working at night clubs.' (Yes, I work at a night club.)

Cross-dress?

2007-02-22T00:01:05Z

At two in the morning, I was out getting something from the store. I don't remember what it was, but I met one of my friends from junior high school or something. I couldn't place who it was at first, but after a while I recognized him. His name is Takatsuka Ayatsuka, and it really surprised me to see him wearing a dress, at first I thought he'd given in to all the teasing and started cross-dressing. See when we were in Junior high school, most of us teased him about him looking like a girl. It was really eerie, I mean at first glance, the way he looks screams "i'm a girl." and its really surprising when he's not. Also a little creepy. I always felt sorry for how mercilessly some of the guys, and girls teased him. I remember that I used to call him Taka. Anyway, we got to talking for a while, telling each other what we'd been up to.

But then I think I got the biggest shock of my life. In addition, to dying his hair, this strawberry-blond color, he'd gotten a sex-change. I think I have been officially traumatized. It's so WIERD.

Don't jump!

2007-02-20T04:47:51Z

I swear I'm not a jumper. Jeez. I don't know what would make people think that either. -sigh-

This morning, I was out for a walk. I stopped on the bridge near my house, then swung over it, leaning against the back of the bridge. I was like that for a little while, just staring at the water, plus there was a really nice breeze. So later on, this lady come up and grabs my shoulder and tells me, "Don't jump!" I was kind 'Huh'. She made my climb back over onto the "safe side" and promise not to jump and try suicide. I just stood there opened mouthed, I swear I thought she was crazy. But then it made me laugh. The whole situation, we'd attracted a crowd by this time, and people were looking at us, mostly me, like we'd flown the coop house. And I couldn't stop laughing for the longest and sometime, I must have leaned back against the bridged a little too much and fell over it.

T.T I got soaking wet and I had to walk the three blocks home cold. I think I caught cold. Lol. They laughed at me too. At least I didn't get hurt..........

Out! and happy to be out!

2007-02-13T01:01:59Z

Yes! I am out of the hospital! Officially!!!!!!!!!!! -cheers- And very much happy to be.

I can't stand being in that place. Its so sterile, it smells.......augh. So after three months, thirty-nine tests, twenty-five pranks later, I am out! SO glad. I think I was going to go insane in there.

Too bad I have to go to school and work now.

Speaking of school, my uniform doesn't fit me anymore and it sucks. well at least I don't have to wear the uniform again, until they get my new one in.

Chemisty and Crystal Kay - two as one

2007-02-09T07:20:32Z

Kanji:

uh baby　君のそばにいると
フワリ　身体浮かぶようで
交わす言葉も　雲の上泳ぐの
I know I’m in a dream now
君のこと知りたくて
だけど気持ちは聞けなくて
このままじゃもう　友達以上には
なれないかな?
いつか　my love
恋人に　my love to you
明日こそはきっと

君に君に　この想いを伝えよう
今　心のまま
この願いが叶うのなら　いつまでも
for you　愛し続けよう

uh baby　4週間とthree days
君は電話さえ聞かずに
ふたりきりだと　話も続かない
maybe you have a girlfriend
夜明けの月のように
手のひらすくう水のように
消えてく前に　こんなに好きなこと
届けたくていつも　my love
見つめてる　my love to you
今夜こそは　きっと

キラキラめく　この想いは風に乗り
今　会いに行くよ
この願いが叶うときは　どこまでも
with you　駆けてゆけるから

心呼び合う　瞬間に
ふたつの愛は　ひとつになるだろう

君に君に　この想いを伝えよう
今　心のまま
この願いが叶うのなら　いつまでも
for you　愛し続けよう

キラキラめく　この想いは風に乗り
今　会いに行くよ
この願いが叶うときは　どこまでも
with you　駆けてゆけるから

駆けてゆけるから

Romaji:

uh baby kimi no soba ni iru to
Fuwari karada ukabu you de
Kawasu kotoba mo kumo no ue oyogu no
I know I’m in a dream now
Kimi no koto shiri takute
Dakedo kimochi wa kike nakute
Kono mama ja mou tomodachi ijou ni wa
nare nai ka na?
Itsuka my love
Koibito ni my love to you
Ashita koso wa kitto

Kimi ni kimi ni kono omoi wo tsutae you
Ima kokoro no mama
Kono negai ga kanau no nara itsumademo
for you aishi tsuduke you

uh baby yon-shuukan to three days
Kimi wa denwa sae kikazu ni
Futarikiri da to hanashi mo tsuduka nai
maybe you have a girlfriend
Yoake no tsuki no you ni
Te no hira sukuu mizu no you ni
Kieteku mae ni konna ni suki na koto
Todoke takute itsumo my love
Mitsumeteru my love to you
Konya koso wa kitto

Kirakira meku kono omoi wa kaze ni nori
Ima ai ni yuku yo
Kono negai ga kanau toki wa dokomademo
with you kakete yukeru kara

Kokoro yobi au shunkan ni
Futatsu no ai wa hitotsu ni naru darou

Kimi ni kimi ni kono omoi wo tsutae you
Ima kokoro no mama
Kono negai ga kanau no nara itsumademo
for you aishi tsuduke you

Kirakira meku kono omoi wa kaze ni nori
Ima ai ni yuku yo
Kono negai ga kanau toki wa dokomademo
with you kakete yukeru kara
Kokoro yobi au shunkan ni

Kakete yukeru kara

Translation:

uh baby when I’m by your side it feels
like my body’s floatin’
When we talk I’m swimming over the clouds
I know I’m in a dream now
I wanted to know you better
but I can’t hear what you’re thinking
If we continue like this, you think we’d
become more than just friends?
Someday you’ll be my love
Tomorrow I’m sure, I’ll send you
my love to you my sweetie

To you my baby, I wanna send the feelin’
that’s in my heart, right now
If this wish should be granted, then
for you I will always continue to love

uh baby it’s been four weeks and three days
and you haven’t called me at all
there’s no "us" if we don’t talk, so
maybe you have a girlfriend.
The moon at daybreak, the way water looks when
it’s scooped in your hands,they’re things
you love right before they disappear
but my love will always reach you
Tonight I’m sure, you’ll see
my love to you my darling

Sparkling emotions ride the wind
as we meet, right now
If this wish should be granted, then
I’ll run away with you

The moment our hearts called out,
two loves will become one.

To you my baby, I wanna send the feelin’
that’s in my heart, right now
If this wish should be granted, then
for you I will always continue to love

Sparkling emotions ride the wind
as we meet, right now
If this wish should be granted, then
I’ll run away with you

I’ll run away with you

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Self-inflicted?

2007-02-09T01:56:29Z

Balah......some of my friends are convinced that I bured myself on purpose. Thus the self-inflicted thing. I want to ask those peopl: "Are you insanse?! Do you think I like living with pain? Do you think I get off on it?" -very miffed at the moment- Seriously, I'm not that kinda person. I hate pain. I'm just used to some of it. like breaking bones, I know how the pain goes, and I can ignore it to an extent...... but having a hand burnt hurts a little more than that, because it stings, and stays for longer than a dull thuddy achey pain.

So anyway, how i did it......

Well you see I was using hot oil to fry chicken. And when I was done, I turned the burner off to let it cool. Then an hour later, I came back to clean the pan. It was still hot. Very hot! I picked it up and dropped it, the oil got all over my hand. It HURT! So now I have more bandages....-sigh-

Me and Gelato!!!!

2007-02-07T03:02:53Z

Yay!!!!!!!! I got Gelato today!!!!!!!!!

If you think about that, its not a good thing. 'cause that puts me in one of the extreme happy, crack modes. Muah! Any way my friends and I went out to the mall, well I snuck out of the hospital and went to the mall. ^.^ It was fun we got Gelato!!!!

MMMMMM it was so good. I tried Mint chocolate Chip, Tres Vanilla and Cinnamon. I loved Tres Vanilla and Mint Chocolate Chip, but the Cinnamon was way too sweet for me.....-sigh- but still good anyway! -bounces-

Gelato information:

Company: Paciugo, Italian Gelato Renissance,
Website: www.paciugo.com

On the other hand, I kinda hurt my hand.....again! I swear I am such a klutz. Except this time it wasn't my fault. We were walking through the park, and then this guy was swinging the baseball bat and he let it go by accident and I wasn't paying attention. It hit my hand. Its currently broken in two places and I have to get a cast on it, in addition to the one I already have on my left hand. Then I fell on the left hand, and I swear I head the POKI! I was like O.O.......

Anyways, there ends my morning.........

Me=idiot!

2007-02-06T04:41:31Z

I'm such an idiot sometimes.

Today I was messing with a hot frying pan and I ended up burning my right hand, uninjured one. Ha ha, now I have a cast on one hand and then bandages on the other one. Typing sucks, cause its painful now..

Oh wellz.....I'll get over it.

Intro

2007-02-05T23:39:37Z

Hello!

I have another account on LJ. You might know me as mystxdeathangel, that's my writing journal. I put my fics and poems there. I'll probably be just using this as my blog, 'cause my twin sister, who lives in Kyoto, complained that she never knows what's going on with me because I stopped posting in my other blog (My account got locked). So she suggested I maintain one here, seeing that I'm on LJ so much. lol. So anyway here it is!august_baby27